Where Would I Be?

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Acts 27:3

And the next day we landed at Sidon. And Julius treated Paul kindly and gave him liberty to go to his friends and receive care.

I have that annoying character flaw of being too much of a thinker.  I can get so lost in my thoughts that reality starts to dim.  That is not to say that I sit around thinking all day long.  On the contrary I work like a mad woman but so much of what I do gives opportunity for the mind to get absorbed in all kinds of thoughts.  And so I think and pick apart conversations; turning them over and over again, wondering the heart behind the words.

This way of laboring over words and intent serves me well in many areas.  It is what helps to make scripture come alive to me.  I turn passages over and over trying to hear the atmosphere in what was said; trying to peer into the heart and mind of the one being quoted or discussed.  It serves me well when counseling someone; I listen not only to the words, but to the heart of the one sharing with me and I listen for the different angles/directions each thought could take.  A word is not a word, just a word.  Who we are and what we are going through puts unique meaning to words at different times and places.  So I am grateful that my mind clicks on different cylinders and I can tune in to more than just appearances and words.  BUT it also can be a giant stumbling block in my life and my walk of faith.

I can think myself into depression.  I can think myself into loneliness and despair.  I can think my heart into ways that it normally would not feel.  I can so overanalyze someone or something that it no longer is who or what it/they truly are.  Crazy right?!  Ugh!!!!!!  That is when I call on the “angels” that God has so graciously placed in my life; my friends.  They listen to the utter nonsense coming forth from my mouth and the amazing part is that they do NOT judge or criticize or try to “fix” me.  They simply love me and listen.  That gives me the freedom to pour all of those ridiculous thoughts out of my head.  I can dump them right out on the ground around me and then my mind is clear again; FREEDOM!  AND the even crazier part is……………………..my friends love me BECAUSE of who I am.  They love my crazy, whacked out brain.

Paul, an incredible disciple, the toughest man I have ever read about, needed care from his friends.  How would scripture have been different if Paul had not had the care of friends?  I don’t want to even imagine how my life would be different without the care of friends……and coming from my brain, that says a lot!!!

Cherish the friendship that the Lord has given to you.  They are a treasure beyond measure.

In His Name,

Kay

Which Way To Go

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Genesis 33:12-17

Then Esau said, “Let us take our journey; let us go, and I will go before you.”

But Jacob said to him, “My lord knows that the children are weak, and the flocks and herds which are nursing are with me. And if the men should drive them hard one day, all the flock will die.  Please let my lord go on ahead before his servant. I will lead on slowly at a pace which the livestock that go before me, and the children, are able to endure, until I come to my lord in Seir.”

And Esau said, “Now let me leave with you some of the people who are with me.”

But he said, “What need is there? Let me find favor in the sight of my lord.”  So Esau returned that day on his way to Seir.  And Jacob journeyed to Succoth, built himself a house, and made booths for his livestock.

 

To fully grasp this blog post you will need to read the entire account of Jacob and Esau.  Up to this point in scripture Jacob, with the help of his mother, has stolen Esau’s birthright and his blessing.  Jacob has run away to his Uncle Laban’s house to escape being killed by Esau who is just a little annoyed with Jacob, to say the least.  Jacob goes through the whole Leah/Rachel thing, working for Laban for ridiculous amounts of time to “win” his bride.  Jacob is prosperous and gains wives, children, livestock and possessions.  Jacob is ready to return home but is terrified to see Esau once again.  Jacob goes through dramatic orchestrations of events to try and appease Esau so that he will not be killed.  AND at the end of all the actions to try to appease Esau, Jacob finds his brother Esau to be happy, healthy and wealthy…..no grudge hanging around his neck.  It appears to be a kiss and hug make-up moment and then to our utter astonishment Jacob once again deceives Esau and does not follow Esau as Jacob declared he would do.  What is up with that?!!!!

Does that twist the wrong way in your brain as it does mine?  Jacob, who God later names Israel, is shown in scripture time and time again to be one gigantic deceiver.  My question is, “God, what were You thinking?  I just don’t get this.  What are You trying to tell me, us your children?”

I called a dear sister of mine early this morning because this scripture was just driving me bonkers.  We hashed ideas back and forth.  She threw new thoughts my way that I had not as yet considered.  And through it all this idea seemed to filter through and begin to take shape……..not all of our journeys make sense.  What looked as though would be a “Hallmark” movie of the week moment where long lost brothers reunite, the music swells, and they walk off into the sunset to live the rest of lives in a loving, united family………………takes a ninety degree unexpected turn.  It does not make sense, at least to my human brain it did not.

What we human creatures see as being the right way for things to be is not always the same vision as God’s.  We witness a reconciliation in Genesis, forgiveness.  BUT God had different paths for these brothers to take.  Maybe this time Jacob was not being deceitful.  Maybe this time Jacob was listening to the voice of God telling him, “Jacob, not that way, go this way.”  A healing took place between the brothers so that they each could go the way they were meant to go.

Not all journeys make sense……………………that makes sense to me.  Make sense to you?

In a World of Ninety Degree Turns,

Kay

Hold in Your Heart

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“But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.”

Luke 2:19

I have said it before and I will say it again, This Christian walk is not an easy path!  Good times come and bad times whirl; “it is not easy being green.”  So what is the answer to living life and not caving in?

You have just given birth to the Savior of the world.  Shepherds and Kings arrive daily to bow before the King of Kings and Lord of Lord.  You smile down at your pride and joy as he lays sleeping, warm and safe in your arms.  Life is joyous.  And yet you know, it will not always be like this.  Your precious bundle of joy will rock the world and not all will be pleased.  You snuggle him a little closer.  Drink in his baby smells.  Caress  his downy head so soft and new.  Feel him mold into your body as you hold him tight.  And at the same time your heart rejoices and cries, holds on to and lets go and you bury down deep within you all that you will need to carry you through this journey.

That is how Mary survived and thrived; she stored up for those desolate days.

Be prepare, my dear friends, if you love the Lord…..the world will not be pleased with you.  Just a fact; says it all over the Bible.  Life confirms it.  But do not fear, for the Lord has made a way and his mother shows us how; store up!  Read the Word, pray, worship, grow in relationship with God the Father, Jesus the Christ and the Holy Spirit.  Get away from the TV/electronics, get out of the house, get out of your car, and be out in the world that God created.  See the faces of His children, marvel at His rivers, trees, mountains, plains, wonder at the birds that fly, look into the giant brown eyes of a horse, smell the earth as it changes seasons, and store it all up within you.

Mary knew that there would be a day when she would need all that she treasured in her heart.  Friends, there will be days for us too.  If you store up now, the God of the universe will hold you up then.  Learn from His Momma.

With Great Love,

Kay