“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you?”
My husband and I are preparing to sell our house and move 800 miles away. We have lived in our current location for over 30 years. We have raised our children and made a home in a land that was foreign to us upon arrival. We have established deep roots with friends, work and community. We have heard and are acting upon the clear voice of God that it is time to uproot and move, but that does not make it easy. What was once “foreign” is now home.
For me the most heart-wrenching struggles involve my children. Youngest son flew the nest this past summer and lives several time zones away from us. Miss him like crazy but we know that he is finding his way in this world. Eldest son is presently at home with us while finishing his college degree. He is an army veteran who spend time in Afghanistan. He flew the nest earlier than most but has needed to land once again at home in order to prepare his wings to fly in the currents of this world. When he left to join the service my heart went with him and I did not breathe for four years until he was once again home. It is hard to leave him here while we move away. Children are suppose to move away, not parents. His return to us after war was a gift of indescribable joy; how can I/we leave him? And yet God’s voice is clear, it is time to move on.
In those times when doubt and sorrow swirl in my head and in my heart, if I turn my focus to God I hear these words, “I go to prepare a place for you.” The disciples did not understand nor want Jesus to leave and yet the Lord knew that He had to leave so that He could prepare a place for all of them to be together. Sometimes doing something painful means making a way for something good, even extraordinary.
I have to trust and believe that God is preparing something good, something extraordinary for us and for the ones that we love. My focus must be on the Lord and my trust must be in Him, if I lose focus, then like Peter (Matthew 14:22-31) I will sink into the watery swirls instead of standing while I walk toward Jesus.
Dear Ones, I go to prepare a place for you, for us. I don’t understand why I need to prepare a place 800 miles away, but God does and I choose to look to Him and walk towards Jesus.